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Some Time Has Passed

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 11, 2016, 8:47 PM

But when am I supposed to be able to grieve. I think about him all the time. I see his grin and hear his goofy laughter in my Granddaughter whenever she comes to visit. I never thought about it before. I never realized just how much he had an effect on me. I'll catch myself saying something and say to myself "Oney used to say that. When did I start saying it? My Son had an account here but life got too busy and he drifted away from it after a short time. He had a Wife and in time a little girl to keep him occupied. Not that he minded one little bit. He Loved those two with all his heart. Even when things weren't going well he stuck it out. He was a better man than I in so many ways. I find myself grinning for just a moment now realizing that he was what every man hopes for in a Son. He may not have done everything right but he kept trying until he got it and I am so proud to have called him my Son and so happy to have had the little time I was blessed to have him around. 

I keep wondering what do I have to be sad about? He's not here, that's what. He's not here to show me the kind of Father I should have been even though he never once judged me or held any of my mistakes or misdoings against me.

He's not here to argue over video games and movies with though I have often in these past days caught myself saying "He would have loved this or he would have been eager to show me that." I'd then hear his voice in my head saying "Just check it out Dad. I know you'll like it." and like so many times before I'd roll my eyes and grin.

He's not here to make the jokes one had to think about for a minute to find them funny delivered with a half grin. Some might have said they were lame but he always made me laugh and if I think of him now I can't help but smile and even laugh.

He's not here to make me worry or wonder how he's going to get through the tribulations he always seemed to never stress over.

He's not here to watch his little one grow though I'm sure he sees her perhaps through the eyes of the woman he Loved so much.

                                                         And then,

I look around me and see all the little things he's left behind, the toys, he never quite grew out of, the books, the comics, the games and movies that were to some trivial but to him the world in which he lived and played and made his living by. I look in the mirror and at the faces of those who's lives he had such a profound effect on. I look around and see him in the faces of those who Loved him and whom he Loved and I realize he hasn't gone anywhere.

                                                     He's still here.

  • Listening to: Loreena McKennitt
  • Reading: Edgar Rice Burroughs
  • Watching: My Granddaughter laugh
  • Eating: A cheese burger
  • Drinking: Peach tea


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