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Pipe Dreams

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 26, 2017, 2:11 PM

It seems my entire life has been one pipe dream after another and now I've come to realize my hope to one day be accepted as, to be taken seriously as an artist has been the biggest pipe dream of them all. I've been here since 2004. I learned a lot about the creation of my own particular form of art. At first it seemed as if other artists here would accept me. I look at my messages today and see comments from the same few people. Other than that I am ignored. People seldom look at my work unless they feel obligated because I either commented on a piece of their work or faved it and more and more I find myself watching highly respected, much loved artists whose work gets thousands of views and faves and forget about commenting. One's comments to these artists only get lost in the crowd and so I am still ignored. I first began doing what I do because no one ever told me I couldn't. I guess I should have listened to the silence rather than the words. I see now it said so much more than any words could have. I'm not leaving DA but I will no longer be submitting anything but stock and I am sure that for the most part that too will be ignored but taking the pictures will, if nothing else give me a reason to get out and away from my desk and this hoarder's nightmare of a room.

I made the mistake of Falling in Love recently. It has been a learning experience I will never forget. I have nothing to offer anyone save my health issues, my emotional issues and my mental health concerns. I don't want to be with someone only to find them taking care of me when I can no longer walk or my depression gets the better of me. I don't want to be the needy one who can't live without someone to watch over me. I don't want to be alone but I don't want to be with someone because I can't take care of myself and my mind has gone. I would rather die. I could never live like this with someone I Love.  I could never subject someone I am in Love with to this. And so I am alone and will stay that way. When the time comes and I find myself losing too much of myself I will go the way of all the other ignored, sad, lonely artists. I wonder if there is a special place in heaven or maybe even in hell for these artists. There I can at least feel as if I belong.

Ps. I'm sick of getting llamas. If people can't be bothered to look at my work don't expect a thank you for a stupid fucking llama.

  • Listening to: Lindsey Stirling
  • Reading: Diabetic cook books.
  • Watching: My world fall apart
  • Eating: not much of anything
  • Drinking: Polished off a bottle of absynth tonight.


Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: Billyburgh (That's actually Williamsport) Pennsylvania, Home of little league baseball

Favorite genre of music: Just about anything
Favorite photographer: all of them
Favorite style of art: varies
Operating System: windows xp, windows 7
MP3 player of choice: whatever is playing the piece I happen to be listening to.
Shell of choice: Walnut
Wallpaper of choice: something in a nice plaid
Skin of choice: If I can't have yours then I'll settle for zebra
Favorite cartoon character: Yacko Wacko and Dot
Personal Quote: I fell out of the box so I must be a corn flake

I have unrestricted stock in a folder in my gallery. However I do have a few small restrictions.
You must inform me of use.
You must link back to the original stock
and lastly, absolutely no hate promoting, anti religious (and this means any religion!) or prejudice (against anyone!) encouraging work.
Other than that do as you please.

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sirenabonita Featured By Owner May 22, 2017
:iconmermaidplz:  Mermaid Josée & i thank you and invite you to visit her mermaid galleries ~……
CapnDeek373 Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2017  Professional General Artist
FollowinTheBlackBird Featured By Owner May 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
MYPeanutGallery Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017
Pink Flowers by KmyGraphic

Thanks for the Fave!
FollowinTheBlackBird Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You are most welcome. :)
altergromit Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the favorites! :hug:!! What by altergromit   Oh by altergromit  
FollowinTheBlackBird Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:) No prob. :hug:
igreeny Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
Thank you very much for faving my work. :squee: I apraciate that very much ! I also have facebook page… that you can like ;)
FollowinTheBlackBird Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You are most welcome. :)
Jean52 Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017
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